Sunday, March 27, 2016

Lessons from School

This week in my Health Class we learned about mental, intellectual, and spiritual wellness.  One of our readings was this article in Forbes magazine.  http://www.forbes.com/sites/nextavenue/2013/07/19/how-to-learn-a-new-skill-fast/#1a0cbcfaf9a4

It's a review of a book called "The First 20 Hours:  How to Learn Anything...Fast".  The author, Josh Kaufman, points out that proficiency can be acquired after only 20 hours.  In one year he set a goal to learn 6 new skills.  He taught himself the ukulele, yoga, windsurfing, computer programming, a fast touch type, and the ancient Chinese board game, Go.  Kaufman compares his methods and research with that of Malcom Gladwell in the Outliers.  We don't have to have 10,000 hours to be proficient. 

The article also discusses how new skills can be learned even as a person ages, and that sometimes an older person has advantages over younger people.

I feel inspired to also set for myself 6 skills to which to devote at least 20 hours.  I will post soon what they will be.

In my Family Stress and Coping class we had to write a Crucible paper about a stressful experience or time and what we gained from it using the concepts and principles from the class and applying a stress model that we have studied.  I was telling Joshua a little about it and he suggested I share with the family.  As a young boy, he didn't realize some of the stress related to the events.  For example he knew Esther had to be hospitalized, and that I was with her, but he just figured babies and moms do that since that was where we were when Esther was born.  So if you want to read it, continue.

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Sheri Erickson
FAML 360 ~ 05
Karen Cummins
March 16, 2016
My Family Crucible
Overview of a Series of Stressor Events
In 1997, the home business of selling lumber that my husband, Alan, was running, took some sharp downturns.  Instead of earning $7000 plus each month, our income was reduced to about $2400, occasionally a little more, but sometimes less.  Along with this decrease of income was the reduction of health insurance benefits and the expense of premiums that we now had to pay which had previously been covered before circumstances changed.
            Our tenth child was born on September 23, Esther, our fifth daughter.  Our first child, a son, Mark, had only lived 5 hours after birth, so Esther was the ninth child for whom we had care on earth.  The health insurance covered the majority of the expense of Esther’s delivery.  Esther had difficulties with her digestion that I didn’t have an awareness of at the time.  I thought she was just colicky.  She was very fussy and my sleep was sorely lacking.  Financial fears added to feelings of frequent fatigue.  Plus I think I suffered some postpartum depression different than with previous babies.  I attributed my mood swings and discouragement to the lack of sleep, but later I realized that it was more; it was likely imbalanced hormones.
            We knew Christmas that year would be lean.  I tried to think of the good blessings we had, but felt a little frustrated at the lack of what we could give for Christmas.  We lived long distance from any extended family and could not afford to visit, nor was anyone coming to see us.  We were soon overcome with an abundance of giving from our ward.  My feelings were mixed between humble gratitude and the pride of not wanting to be seen as a charity case. 
            About three weeks after Christmas our two oldest high school daughters were in a car accident.  They had slid on a snowy road and hit a tree.  Our oldest, Chrystal, 16 years old, was driving.  Mary, 15, was a passenger.  Chrystal was able to walk with a disoriented Mary (due to hitting her head on the dashboard) to a nearby friend’s home. During the walk Chrystal sang to Mary, “Beautiful Savior” a piece they had done as a duet as Primary girls.  Chrystal’s head was also bleeding from hitting the steering wheel.  The neighbor called an ambulance.  My husband and I arrived before the ambulance.  My heart was pierced when Chrystal lamented about the cost of the accident.  She had felt some of the financial strain in our home as well.  I tried to reassure her and focus the attention on their wellness and safety.  We transported the girls to the hospital ourselves, declining the use of an ambulance anxious about what the cost would be. The cobra insurance we had been paying for had expired at the end of the year.  We now had catastrophic health coverage with a very high deductible.     
We were so grateful that both girls checked out okay.  Mary was given an MRI.  For Chrystal it was deemed unnecessary.   A few stitches and bruises were all they ultimately suffered. Chrystal agonized past her recovery for the loss of the car (it was totaled) and for her imagined negligence.  Alan and I repeatedly assured Chrystal that snow conditions are unavoidable.  We tried to avoid and help Chrystal avoid the “would have, should have” feelings.  Again we felt great sympathy and attention from our ward, and in a special way, the girl’s young women leaders and seminary teacher made specific visits.
            With increased bills I started a little money making venture waking up very early to make cinnamon rolls for businesses.  Esther would wake about 4 a.m. to nurse, then go to sleep and I would stay up baking.  Several of my customers were ward members.  Alan decided to start a large greenhouse for which we already had the frame.  A couple of ward members helped him to set up the frame and put the plastic on.  Alan began many planter trays and also got some pots, calculating a handsome profit by spring.
            About six weeks after the girls’ accident, Esther developed RSV and pneumonia.  I thought she had an ear infection.  Alan and I took her to an urgent care on a Sunday evening.  The doctor admitted Esther to the hospital right away.  I just stayed too, she was a breast-feeding baby, my baby.  We spent three nights in the hospital.  Chrystal brought me clothes and other supplies on the second day.  Esther had oxygen and antibiotics and rallied fairly well.  The three nights felt like three months.  All of my other activities had been completely suspended and Alan had the full force of care for eight other children, which included two pre-school boys.
            Warmer weather and brighter hopes came as spring approached.  Esther was gaining strength.  One sunny afternoon Alan was out working in the greenhouse with the four boys.  The plastic sides of the greenhouse were rolled up to cool the inside temperature a little.  A freak wind whooshed in and lifted the greenhouse like a kite tumbling it over and over through our 1.5 acre yard.  It was so sudden.  Alan was completely caught off guard.  The frame was seriously bent, the plastic torn, a complete loss.  The handmade tables of pots and trays with their tiny seedlings were now precariously exposed.  Within a couple of days Alan had sold all the plants to a local hardware store for about a tenth of what we could have made, but thankfully, it was enough to cover most of the startup costs.
            In April that year a tax bill came due that was unexpected.  In our naiveté about home businesses we had received incorrect information about how much withholding tax to reserve.  It was much higher than we could pay and we had to begin installment payments.
            By the end of the summer, we determined to prepare our house to sell and relocate to where my husband’s parents lived in Wyoming.  In due course the sale of the home covered the debts we had and helped us to get back on our feet financially.  Ultimately Alan found another job with a company in North Idaho and we relocated again.  We also had two more children, a daughter who died in utero at 20 weeks, and our last a son.  This overview covers only the nine months of pileup stressor events.
Analysis of Life Cycle and Family Typology
            One of the first items to understand is the stage of our family’s life cycle.  Nine children ranging in ages from newborn to 16 years old is an extremely demanding phase.  So we were already in a highly stressed setting.            The decrease in income created prior strains before several financially distressing events.  
            Out of the four family types described I would assess our types as being 1) regenerative, 2) bonded, 3) rhythmic and 4) traditionalistic.  We had a lower vulnerability level, but not as low as it could have been.  1) Regenerative: Our level of hardiness was high before many of these events due to the fact that Alan was self-employed and we felt a sense of independence and control as well as learning new things.  We also had a great family commitment to living the gospel which brought meaning to our lives.  We experienced other trials in our earlier married years which brought us growth and understanding, so we knew we could weather hardships.  Our level of coherence was also fairly high with loyalty and shared values.  Our mutual acceptance was tested when the business began to fail because I put the responsibility for providing for the family squarely on Alan’s shoulders, and he sensed it.
            2) Bonded:  We did many things together, had good connections, and many open discussions.  But our flexibility was more towards a lower end because my husband felt the need to make most of the decisions and there was not very much compromise or communication happening, nor was there much shift in responsibilities.   
            3) Rhythmic:  We were very consistent with family prayer, family scriptures, family home evening and attendance at church.  Alan and I had regular dates each week.  We often had family outings camping, hiking, getting firewood, playing games, visiting friends and so forth.  These activities were all well-established before the stressor events and were continued throughout the many worrisome happenings of several months.
            4) Traditionalistic:  Again I would cite the consistency with gospel practices in our home, church attendance, Sabbath activities, fulfilling callings, and family routines as very high.  Some celebratory behaviors were less than they could have been.
Application of Stress Models
            The A of the stress model was initially the decrease in income.  Then pileup stressor events of sicknesses and accidents built off of that.
            B is for both resources and how they are applied.  When income was greater, we could have saved more and had a greater reserve than we did have.  We didn’t counsel with anyone about our situation.  We may have been able to receive some career direction.  Our bishop and other ward members were sensitive to our situation and gave support at Christmas and with our side business ventures.  Consistency in gospel living and knowing how to work were resources we drew upon.  Daily reading The Book of Mormon became my lifeline to sanity and resilience, a very important resource.  I could have sought medical help for my postpartum depression had I not been so worried about additional medical expenses.  Some of it was unknown to me and had I shared with someone, a doctor, or bishop, or trusted friend I might have realized I needed healing help.  But instead I berated myself for being weak.  I pressured myself to be an ideal mother, and condemned myself often for falling short.  These thoughts lead to the next element in the stress model.
            The appraisal of the crises represents C in the model.  My thoughts were all over the place.  I blamed one of the companies Alan sold for that cancelled their business which brought the major reduction.  I faulted Alan for the mess we were in.  Other times I had hope and faith that all things would work together for our good.  There were many unspoken expectations between us as a couple.  There were unspoken fears in our children’s minds.  As in the incidence with the Christmas giving from our ward, I sometimes felt like a charity case and a victim.       
These were distorted thoughts that fed my discouragement.  My other distorted thoughts were that I was unworthy, that I lacked ability.  I know Alan felt discouraged too, but he rarely shared his thoughts and fears.  He tried to lessen the load by working harder even in areas that brought no relief.  I often escaped with food.  At times we would rally with determination knowing that God loved us and would provide for us as we kept trying. 
            Because we didn’t communicate very openly with our children, we didn’t know all of their thoughts.  I know Chrystal felt the weight of the car accident.  As the oldest she was already very responsible for younger siblings and helping around the house and yard.  She seemed to be like her dad in finding relief in working harder and talking less. 
            Problem Solving and Coping Skills (PSC) were more evidenced as time went by.  We tried to think of things to improve our finances.  We worked together as a family more fervently.  We held on to gospel living more devotedly.  We lacked the family council methods of communicating openly and brainstorming which could have at least helped the children’s fears to lessen, and at most brought other ideas and inspiration to our course of action.  There was much avoidance practiced by myself and Alan.  There was a vague sense that business would get better, but when it didn’t we were forced to think of other alternatives.  Elimination and assimilation began as we realized more drastic actions would need to occur which resulted in the selling of our home and seeking new employment.
            Between stressor events there were degrees of maladjustment and exhaustion before recycling to the next stressor event.  There were also times of bonadaptation as we assimilated to a new norm. 
The Total eXperience
            The most significant positive outcome of this time in our lives was that we hung on to each other and the Lord.  We learned that we can face tough times together.  We didn’t let this break us apart as a family.  Often at night I would lay in bed thinking of where I could run away.  Each morning I found the strength through diligently reading The Book of Mormon, to stay.  I didn’t realize what a rod of iron that book truly was for me until we moved.  I was praying fervently and expressing gratitude that I hadn’t run away and that God had held on to me.  The Holy Ghost spoke clearly to my soul; “Because you were reading The Book of Mormon each day is why you were able to stay.”  That became one of life’s most important lessons for me.  I have read each day since then.  I know the power of it. 
            We set an example for our children.  Although we could have communicated more openly and pooled our family energy and resources better, all of our now married children know that marriages and families can and do survive severe trials.
            We gained empathy for others who struggle with ups and downs in employment.  We learned not to judge another’s situation and to be sensitive to offer support.
            Our testimony of tithing became an everlasting law written in our hearts.  There were many miracles that kept us afloat that can be attributed to no other thing than living this law.  Corollary to this is the counsel to live debt free.  Once free, we determined never to be in that situation again.  The only debt we incurred was a home, which we sold a few months ago.  We live debt free now, preparing to buy another home in the next year or so.
            We learned to be more open in our communication with each other and with our children.  This is an area in which we daily make efforts for improvement.  As the life cycle has changed and children have become more like peers, discerning dialogues are more common.
            It’s probably not possible to delineate all the lessons learned that have impacted and are still influencing our family in positive ways.  As Elder Neal A. Maxwell has said, “Patient endurance permits us to cling to our faith in the Lord and our faith in His timing when we are being tossed about by the surf of circumstance. Even when a seeming undertow grasps us, somehow, in the tumbling, we are being carried forward, though battered and bruised. Therefore, true enduring represents not merely the passage of time, but the passage of the soul—and not merely from A to B, but sometimes all the way from A to Z.” (Maxwell, April 1990).

             
           
           
           
           

               

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